FEATURED POET: Sha'neka Morris

"I wrote this June 24,2010, my way of expressing my feelings about a relationship on what should've been our anniversary.."

Weather Blues

Today was a very sentimental day for me
Decided to take a walk on the beach
Though my friends wanted to come to comfort me
Alone is what I needed to be
Sitting bare foot in the sand with
Two champagne glasses and a bottle of wine
thought it would be appropriate for this one occasion
made a toast to what I thought would have been forever
But how selfish of me to feel so dreary
When this beautiful sunset lies right in front of me
Shades of yellow and red reflecting from the sun
Touches the water as the waves become calm..still..at peace
If only love were that simple for me
If only the warmth of the sun's touch could heal the cuts & bruise of this broken heart
So that finally i could be at ease
I just wish that I could be in between the space where the sky & ocean kiss
Know what it feels like to be in that never ending embrace
I am constantly movin towards that on going line
In what feels like a slow motion pace
Never been able to get close enough in arms length
I wana pull that space apart look behind it just to see if
there is something deeper more profound beyond the horizon
My curiousity wont let me rest until I know if its real or not
Searching for that one thing that would make it all better
So I drink until I can block out all the images of us together
So that your face becomes a blurr
So that I dont feel the need to wana replace
That space where you once were
And I have worn myself out..
Reflecting on the mistakes I've made
Retracing the tracks trying to find that loop hole of where it all went wrong
Tormenting myself with the notion that I
was just your way of getting over her..
And although that maybe false.. I am certain it holds some truth
For you to easily turn and walk away without the slightest glance back
to see if there is something worth holding on to
Your words...Your actions.. cut me too deep
And the only conclusion anyone can come up with.. "It wasn't meant to be"
But in the back of my mind all I can phantom is "How much I guna miss him"
Even buried my past in hopes that I started something special
Planted a seed to watch it grow into something I know has potential
Surrounded with a garden full of beauty
But one seed.. doesn't want to grow into anything more
It shocks me ... I never seen a flower afraid to blossom in the sunlight
Feelings drifted away like the changing of the seasons, a love so hot just ended so cold
The line where land & sky meet be come more out of reach
I use the horizon as a metaphor for LOVE because..
The Closer I seem to go towards it..The further it drifts away from me...

Sha'neka Morris

@Da_OriqNeka

CHANCES and RELATIONSHIPS

NOTE TO READER: I KNOW you might disagree with this post, but this has been lingering around in my head all day so I felt that it needed to be said. Hopefully while you are reading this, you can put your own beliefs and/or personal experiences to the side and try to take in and understand where I'm coming from:

Second Chances in a relationship...My opinion?

There is no such thing as a second chance in a relationship. With that said, I feel that it is safe to say that there is also no such thing as continuous chances in a relationship. The reason I feel so is this: In order for there to be a "second chance", the same conditions of the previous settings must be met, including feelings and emotional strength that existed before the now corrupted bond of the two mates. In order for that to be possible, the damage(s) done to one's emotions must be undone in a way that the feeling(s) and memory(s) of being hurt becomes nonexistent...which is Impossible. Emotions cannot be fixed or replaced. They can only be tended and catered to.

The word "Chance" is associated with the word "opportunity: due to a favorable combination of circumstances." The direct definition of "chance" is given as "the unknown and unpredictable element in happenings that seems to have no assignable cause." Therefore, the only real time a chance is being taken is in the very beginning of the relationship, where there is unpredictability. You are given an opportunity to make something happen out of uncertainty. There are no assigned causes. That is a chance. For one to mess up and ask for a second chance is literally and theoretically impossible due to the fact that they are already aware of most of the do's and don'ts. There are conditions also placed, terms which must be met, and things must be done to correct the previous wrongs. Ones there are certainties, it no longer considered a chance. It is now considered as an Opportunity, A retry, A redo. These things allow for certainties and conditions. Chance does not.

With that said, I will conclude by saying that in a relationship, there is only one Chance, the beginning. For one to allow someone to correct a mistake is to allow them to maintain in your life. But to say you are giving them a second chance is false because you are consciously or subconsciously expected them to repeat their actions. The idea of what happened will also cloud your mind and cause you to regress more than you previously did, which would make it a whole new ground. Chances are risks. Giving someone an opportunity to reattempt what they messed up on or to allow one back is less of a risk and more of a test. You have an expected right result and an expected wrong result. A pass will lead to rebuilding and continuation. A fail will lead to termination. These are what is known as certainties, not uncertainties, and therefore not a chance. The only true Chance is the first occurrence...

There...I Said it.